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Suddenly things are coming to a head for you, Kdbutterfly. The drama is escalating and you are not sure if you can remember all of your lines. Take things one step at a time. Deal with the issues as they come. If you get a head of yourself, you might get overwhelmed by what you fear will be too daunting of a situation than you can handle. Don't sweat the small stuff.

Wow.. I'm leaving tomorrow, and I'm freaking out. I mean, I'm definitely excited, but I seriously feel like I'm flying into the complete unknown. It's freaky and awesome all at once. I haven't heard from Ronnie in a few days.. his cell phone's disconnected now, so I'm just hoping I can find him at the airport. He wrote down my info a couple times, so I'm hoping he'll be there. If he's not, I'll be fine, cause the car's in my name and everything.. but I really want him there, ya know? I think if I can't find him, I'll just have him paged, and if he still doesn't show, I guess I'll just head to my cousin's and email him.. I'm not sure. I hope it won't come to that though. I suppose I need to just re-read my horoscope for tomorrow again, and just calm down. Whew, it's just such a whirlwind of emotion I have right now. It's hard to keep myself steady. It's like I'm going to college for the first time again.. that's how this feels. Cause I have absolutely no clue what exactly is going to happen out there. It came so fast too. It's so weird to be planning and thinking about something for so long, and then all of a sudden it's happening. And you find yourself trying to catch up emotionally to what's happening around you. I still have to pack.. can you believe it? Granted, most of the clothes I'm taking are in the dryer ready to be put in the suitcase.. so at least I know what I'm taking. It's just a matter of putting it all in there. I have to wake up in 5 hours to take a shower. Ug. I figure I can just sleep on the plane. It's about a 6 hour flight, so I'll have time. So I guess I should go to pack now. This is so crazy.. yipe. It's a good crazy. But still very crazy. I hope there's a good life out there waiting for me. I guess more than anything, I'm just searching for my calling.. searching for a place to belong. I'm not sure if it's there, but I am positive it's the next step in finding what I'm looking for. Here's hoping it's the answer I'm seeking. Aloha, everybody! =)

P.S. Ronnie just called me. He told me he bought a car from this girl who was moving for only $200.. And he got the day off from work, so he said he'll definitely be there. Yay.

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yayalltheway
Aug. 17th, 2005 07:45 am (UTC)
Wow, I swear, like everybody I know is going to Hawaii. You have a job over there? I hear it's pretty easy to find work.
kdbutterfly
Aug. 17th, 2005 07:56 am (UTC)
I don't have a job yet, but yah, I hear the same thing. Ronnie got a job after only being there two days. He also already has a car and a place to live, and he's only been there a little over a week. They have one of the best employment rates in the country. I haven't really started looking for a job, cause I want to take a vacation.. at least until September. You should come on over!
_timewellwasted
Aug. 17th, 2005 12:08 pm (UTC)
aaaah!! have a safe flight and update asap!

i want pictures, dammit!
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